It's not anything really...

I feel distracted. No. No, that’s not right. There is a feeling that you get on a hot summer afternoon when you can stand in your backyard and feel your shirt sticking to your back; and then you see a thunderstorm on the horizon. You can hear the rumble of the thunder and feel the energy of the lightning. It’s not scary or exciting or anything really…it’s just a change. Not unwelcome, just different. It’s that feeling. You feel it there on the horizon and know its coming. Will it be a warm summer shower or a powerful downpour with earth-shattering thunder? Does it matter? Either way, in a few minutes or maybe an hour, things aren’t going to be like they are right now.

I feel frustrated. Have you ever tried to put together one of those puzzles with a thousand little pieces? You dump the box on to the table and start trying to find the obvious pieces… the corners, the borders, a building perhaps…but sometimes once you get that far you just can’t seem to find the right matches. You move the pieces around or push your face up real close hoping to find what you’re looking for. And if that doesn’t work, you jokingly try to force some pieces together…but who are you kidding? You were only half joking.